advantages of gratitude

It has felt that grief has haunted my soul over the last ten years. And maybe not in the way you would think. I feel like there is no place to rest my spirit. There is no place to just be. There is no place to just giggle. There is no place to put my soul, without creating depth and analyzing every aspect of life. There is no place to be like I was before loss.
Remember the times you used to be mad about nothing important?