Yesterday I did a photo shoot with my dear friend and co-producer of my series #MyVividLife Colin Burwell and I felt like a super model, besides when I seen my profile pic that reminded me of a Thanksgiving Turkey, must of been all those carbs in South Africa.
I guess it’s back to Kundalini Yoga ( the cult that chants, covers their heads and wears all white for those of you unfamiliar 😉 but hey when I go in I feel like a donkey and when I come out I feel like a unicorn with rainbows shooting out my ass, so it works for me) For those of you interested the fabulous Angela Baldwin is our guide.
Now the reason I felt like a super model wasn’t because I felt I looked like one. I constantly struggle with excepting my image.
It was because it was freezing cold and I had to change outside lol.
Reminded me of all my model friend’s stories of water shoots in freezing cold water that when published looked like a tropical oasis.
There are so many illusions in life and I never want to be one to perpetuate them.
So for me a photo shoot amoungst a autumn backdrop in my favorite casual cloths, submerged in nature and then later Colin acting as a voyeur as I expressed my alchemist self, testing essential oil blends for an upcoming line my husband Tim Emberley and I are working on, as well as revealing the artist within making my version of malas that if I can get over my attachment issues might be available for sale soon.
This is all part of me coming out again.
I was afraid. Seriously afraid.
For 8 years I hid behind other peoples beliefs, ideologies and reflections. Creating, editing and producing others but struggling with being comfortable with my own voice.
I was slowly coming to terms that I didn’t have to brand and market myself as one thing. That I didn’t have to choose between being the author, the producer, the alchemist, the foodie, the traveler and the artist.
That all of these were a part of me and that it was and is ok for me to be and express all of it and in turn I hope my coming out will encourage you to do the same.
Be the Witchy Woman, The Spiritual Rocker who loves metal, The Yogi who eats and loves meat, the mystical gypsy, the bold eccentric artist with an interest in politics, and the nerd who loves sci-fi and fashion all at the same time.
For FUCK SAKES set yourself free.
After all this is your one chance and life is so much better all in.
Fuck What Everyone Else Thinks.