I am interested in having us all look at the energy of old wounds that run us into addictive states. I am interested in supporting us all into understanding that we are spiritual beings having a human experience. This being human is meant to be powerful and dynamic.
I have been thinking about addictions and the importance of the root cause. And that cause is the avoidance of really feeling something, or trying to find our worth, power and life outside of ourselves. We are looking for the perfect job, wealth, soul mates to complete us and spiritual leaders to show us the way. We do almost anything to avoid being in pain. We hide, overeat, drink too much, and move from relationship to relationship in order to escape. The interesting thing is that we are not aware that the pain is communicating to us what we need to know. It is trying to show us old wounds that need to be healed so that we can move into a greater dimension of joy.
Several years ago, I had a young woman come to me who was “cutting” herself. As we explored the behavior, we uncovered that whenever she was distressed about her traumatic childhood she would “cut” instead of dealing with the painful thoughts. For some of us that would seem irrational. However, for her, the “cutting” distracted her enough to never have to go back into the emotional upheaval that she experienced as a child. As we worked together, we slowly began to disconnect the old pain, remove that energy from her body and open a space for her to create a new way of being in the world. Today, she is a college graduate and doing amazing work in service to others.
The thing is that we all have incredible avoidance mechanisms. In my family it was food and illness. Five generations of women ate for comfort and ended their lives with physical and health challenges. Please remember that nothing that has ever happened to you can define you or your life. Whatever your “drug” of choice is, be willing to face it and get support to heal that wound. Once you do, you will make choices to love, live and express your divine nature. You have never been lost. Your worth is not outside of you. Every wound is a call to heal. Answer it. You deserve to live and be fully expressed.
Take a moment to remember this:
Today, I take a bold step and dare to look at old wounds and shadow experiences. I call forth my greatness and dare to let go of anything that does not support my freedom.