Lately, life has been an unyielding struggle for my partner and I who are facing the beast that is family law in Ontario. As we try to navigate through a seemingly nonsensical and very stressful world, I am most amazed at the transformations it is having on each of us as individual souls set on a predestined path. As I distance my mind and alter my perceptions I see the workings of much larger meanings at play. I watch as previous limitations of beliefs about each of our personal power and abilities are met and broken through. Even in destruction there is the beauty of a hint of something new and wonderful awaiting. I was reminded of an old piece of writing I did and pulled it up from the archives:
I can imagine the last couple of days leading up to a chick breaking through the egg, is rather cramped, uncomfortable, and even in somewhat of a cranky mood. Here the safe and protective comfort of the egg has shifted into a restrictive prison. Yet, the egg itself didn’t change. The environment itself remained the same. What changed or shifted was the chick. The chick grew. The chick developed and with it the perspective and sense of the enclosing environment went from comforting and safe to restrictive and debilitating. Just when the chick can’t take the pressure of the walls closing in anymore, the chick breaks free. The chick is born to its new life, in a bigger environment, to experience a vast amount of challenges its developing form.
The chick didn’t analyse leaving the comfort of what is known for the discomfort of the unknown. The chick intuitively knew it was time to break through the barrier because to remain would be certain death. The simplicity of this example of rebirth is a great lesson to me right now. I can see in my own life, the walls were closing in on me. At least, that is the perspective when it feels like the stresses of life are overwhelming the joy that once existed there. But perhaps, like the egg and chick, it wasn’t what was going on around me that was shrinking, it was me that was growing. Perhaps, as we grow on a spiritual level we come to the point of break through only when our spirits out grow the circumstances of our lives. Then, just like the chick we experience irritation at the cramped, unmoving prison walls of circumstance until that moment comes when we just can’t take it anymore, and CRACK, we break through the barriers of limitation to a vast new world.
This is certainly true for me in the last couple of months, as more and more previously limiting beliefs came up and each one calcifying the egg that held me encased. It is easy to get angry with the barriers, irritated and even blame them for being there but, I also remember it is those walls that kept me safe, until the time that I was big enough and strong enough to break through to something new. So, while I believe that understanding why or where our limiting beliefs come from is useful, I also think that we need to love them for the function they served at the time. Forgiving the past and forgiving ourselves is part of it. Accepting that things happen all in the perfect timing is part of it. Surrendering to the process is part of it. Everything has purpose. Everything is a natural evolution. Everything has the power of grace locked within it.
Once there is conscious awareness of where or what you are. There is always the ability to grow, gain strength, breakthrough, be reborn often, in an endless cycle of new beginnings. Even if there isn’t conscious awareness, eventually the cramped existence we create for ourselves will intuitively push for you to break free.
Play with words:
Any way you break it apart being in a state of break isn’t such a bad thing in a world of cycles, sometimes it needs to break to rebuild it better.