My vivid life overflows with love, blessings and infinite possibilities!
My #VividLife is one of Gratitude and Wonder and Awe – for hearing music that resonates in my soul be it pop or opera, from a wind chime or songs from a bird or more. I want to always be mesmerized by the space shuttle fly back to earth after a journey in space, to be awed at the creation we manifest in our machines, in our health, in our living structures, in anything we do. I want to always believe in angels. And somehow with that wealth of gratitude wonder and awe, we are living in our dream forever home, launching a great new business, and pinching ourselves every day at our #VividLife!
I remember living in lack.
When I was 16 I got arrested for shop lifting. And trust me, I wasn’t a kid that needed to be shop lifting. I mean sure my Mom was a single parent, I didn’t have all the money I wanted to spend on frivolous things, but I certainly didn’t need to shop lift for prom jewelry. But I did.
When I think back on it now, I realize I was living in lack. I felt entitled. Like because others had it I should too. No matter what it took. I stole money from my Moms purse. I stole make up, jewelry (until I got caught) and beer or any alcohol. I was heading down a slippery slope of bad choices that was most likely leading to a lot of drunken debauchery and more poor choices.
I don’t have a really low rock bottom story. I know many do. Luckily my rock bottom was more gradual. I started getting sick and tired of being sick and tried. I didn’t like the feeling of lack. And the blame that seemed to come along with it. I blamed my family. My friends. My circumstances. My town. My siblings. My loss. My drama. I blamed alcohol, sports, men, society, public schools and God. They were ALL to blame for my life spiraling downward.
Until they weren’t. For me there came a time in my life when I woke up. I woke up to my abundance. To my potential. to my power. I started to slowly realize that I created my reality. When I focused on something, positive or negative, I created it. Whatever I gave attention to I saw more of. It was beautiful. And scary.
If I wanted to get a part in a play. I just walked around as if I already had it. And I always got it. If I feared that I wasn’t enough, that always played out. If I felt desirable, I had men beating down my door. If I felt like a looser, no one would call. Simple for a college kid. But wow, profound. Because if this was true I couldn’t live my life in lack. If this was really working why would I focus on what I DON’T want?
I remember a day when I made a life changing decision. I went to bed one night, and decided that tomorrow I would focus only on what I wanted. I’d seen enough proof. I knew that I created my reality. Although it seemed like no one else knew this but me, and I hadn’t yet found the 10 million books on the subject, I was still ready. The next morning, I took my favorite rock that I had found on a very glamorous trip to Indianapolis. I went down to a small river near my school and I had a little ritual. That rock signified all the crap and drama that I’d been living. All the terrible thoughts that took me down a road of lack and misery. And I cried. I cried over the tough situations I’d put myself in. I cried to forgive myself. But I also cried because I knew this would lead to a happier, healthier more positive life. And I thew the rock into the river.
Then I felt a little silly. 20 years old, wearing a sweat suit. Standing near a river crying over the life I want. And I went back to my dorm room. And started living in abundance.
It was a pretty simple but again profound shift. My mantra then…”What DO I want?” I constantly reframed my thoughts. What DO I want? What DO I want? What DO I want? And it worked. I continued to focus on what I wanted. I spoke only about what I wanted. I thought only about what I wanted. And I took action only on what I wanted. And my life changed. Pretty fast. I got the audition. I got the guy. I got the job. I got the grades. I got the friendships, the deeper connections, the health I wanted, the social life I wanted, the experiences I wanted. Now THIS was fun.
A vivid life of abundance is available to ALL of us. I believe it’s our birthright. Ive lived both sides of the coin. Pretty dramatically. And believe me, it’s much better in the light. I have created EVERYTHING I’ve EVER wanted in my life, by focusing on what I want. By safe guarding my happiness. By shifting my mindset and focusing on the good in my life. On the abundance. On the love. On the flow. On the beauty. On the vivid life that I always wanted and now have.
Come join me in the light. The waters warm.
My vivid life looks remarkably like how I am living in each here and now moment. If involves a wealth of amazing kindred spirits that I call overlapping soul circles, an abundance of creative opportunities to speak and write, teach and inspire, as well off the charts vitality. It includes my radio show here on Vivid Life, called It’s All About Relationships that reaches people all over the planet and allows me the gift of interviewing remarkable transformational people. It incorporates living as love incarnate as I share the message that we are all That. It opens to the door to miracles and wonder that exceed even my vivid imagination. It ushers in a loving life partner to share work and play with me. As an opti-mystic, I see the world through the eyes of possibility.
“It’s in the quietest of moments, that your soul will speak the loudest.” Vanessa Marie
I remember after I experienced my awakening that I had the burning desire to help change the world. I wanted to make it my mission to do so and I wanted to be of service to others, as we should. I soon realized however, that in order to help change the world, I needed to change myself and I needed to go deep within and discover and love the authentic being who was waiting patiently beneath all the mask and veils I had created throughout my life. I needed to start at the base, the root of my being. I needed to grow and nuture my own self Love garden so that it could grow strong, strong enough that it could be felt by others in my presence. I had to find my true self so that all of my intentions for myself and for others came from an honest place within my heart, where truth resides. The key to helping change the world starts internally and the effects will be felt externally. Share your Light, your Love, inspire others, give graciously, openly, honestly and tenderly. Be vulnerable, Be Authentic. Be You. There is no one else like you, nor will there ever Be.
Directing your attention and allowing your feelings to arise without doing anything to fix, manage or resist them, automatically changes the energy in your space.
My VividLife includes following my heart and saying yes to health and freedom in all ways, for myself and for the world around me.
One of learning to love and accept myself for who I am and embracing all of my experiences as opportunities for learning and growth. One of consciously choosing to live my life fully without regret rather than simply existing. One of embracing my aliveness as I navigate the waters of this human life experience on this journey into consciousness.
On March 30, 2011, I suffered the unexpected loss of my beautiful first born son. At first, I was immobilized. It seemed that every truth I ever knew was gone. When times are tough, things must often be understood from beyond the level of the mind. They must be questioned on the level of the soul, where they are always answered.
I credit a meditation method taught by Neale Donald Walsch, in which I learned to ask God to help me understand , as the catalyst for an entirely new understanding of change which I have since embraced.
How we feel about change has a lot to do with our perception of what is occurring, as well as our perceived level of control over things, and how we ultimately assess or label what is happening and its impact.
Many of us acknowledge feeling jittery when things in our lives begin to noticeably change. I use the term “noticeably” because things are always changing. Life is just another word for change. Indeed personal growth, as well as life itself, cannot occur without it.
Though it sometimes feels as if too much change occurs at once, or perhaps not enough is occurring, and it often feels as if change is occurring too quickly, or not soon enough, all of these perceptions are imagined. I now understand that change occurs exactly when it is supposed to occur, according to the concept of Divine timing, which applies to everyone and everything.
I find when things are good; life is happy and comfortable, and I am with people I really like…when it all seems relatively simple, I often wish things would stay the way they are longer than they actually do.
During times like these, change is perceived differently. If change feels too soon to me right now, isn’t it really a message to calm down and focus on the present moment only? For it is only by showing up maximally in the present, and shining a bright inner-light on each day, that we can lengthen its value, deepen its meaning, and experience each day more gracefully and more gratefully lived.
Right here. Right now. I am that I am. Just as You are that You are. Unbounded and absolutely brilliant Beings. Beings whom no identity could ever confine. Remember Yourself. Take a deep, conscious breath and own the infinitely incredible Being that you truly are, and I promise to do the same. And as we breathe in, may we do so as if it were your last breath. Because in this moment—it is. How absolutely perfect.
My Vividlife is choosing the extraordinary in the face of ordinary. I don’t believe in living a life half-lived so I seek out unique people, places, and experiences. Making other people feel special and wanted is my goal in life, I want everyone to leave my presence feeling better about themselves than when we first met. I have always been a seeker and I don’t believe that you can fully live until you’ve travelled to new places and had a taste of what life is like outside of the borders of your own hometown. Writing about my experiences and sharing them with others brings me great joy. If you want to live a life others will be inspired by you have to be willing to take some risks. Travelling with my husband and good vibe tribe of friends who love and support me, warm herbal teas on cold rainy days and thick books full of stories that inspire and uplift me, dancing to music and attending concerts. Just a few things that contribute to making my life, a Vivid life. I want to leave behind a legacy of love and magic, knowing that anything is possible if you set your mind to it and persist to make it happen. I’ve been through homelessness and abuse but it’s never been an excuse to hold back in life, I fought hard to get to where I am today and I know others can too. You are not your story, but you are capable of writing a new ending if you’re willing to take a chance and truly live life to it’s fullest. Take the chance, book the trip, take the photos and never, ever, look back.
To be creative for me is to be a champion at living a vivid life, facing fears and making my dreams my life. Adventuring into the darkness to feed that creative fire within us to create becomes the greatest gift to any artist. It’s no secret, any artistry is a challenge for mind, body and spirit balance when challenging the unknown and making a difference to people. Living proof your creativity makes a difference will only exist through dedication and never giving up. Creating vision to life, could be represented through a simple picture or the realization life is dark at times but you have the power to create your vivid life. The joyful, rewarding, bright sparkling feeling that grows in you as you learn to step out into the darkness, into that unknown. Turning darkness into light.
Wishing you a creative day,
As a survivor of emotional, physical and sexual abuse I find it is so very important to live in the moment at all times. To remember that the past is over and that it has been important in some way. The past has taught me to always live for the creation of a better tomorrow.
I breathe, when the moments that have hurt so deeply penetrate my thoughts. I stop, ground myself in the present moment and breathe out like I’m pushing away the same wind that brought the thoughts in. I force it out. Clear my thoughts by sending out love and forgiving thoughts to others and to myself.
I breathe in self love, and calm. I remember to breathe…….This is how I am able to continue to live as vividly as I do. At 50, I am thriving in all aspects of life because I choose live a vivid life.