Wow! What a week. What a great decision.
So much realization in such a short time and I owe it all to something that a week ago I felt would be the cause of a downward spiral, and it could have been, however as always, I allow myself to process the emotional consequences of it all and once clear take it to self-inquiry and care.
In this particular case I decided to embark on a 21 day journey through my own program, currently known as the “21 Day VividLife Quest”, which boasts rave reviews of life transformation and renewal.
Through my life, as through many of our lives, I seem to flip flop between suffering and peace. However a few years ago I begun to take note of the many areas in our lives, that regardless of outer circumstances, create more peace, and after years of applying these principles to my own life I decided to mentor others, and in that pursuit I seemed to have forgotten about myself.
Slowly I stopped being active, connecting with others, became a recluse, started eating poorly and solely focused on mentoring others.
For obvious reasons this rapidly started to affect my physical, mental and spiritual wellbeing and lead me on the path to becoming a hypocrite which synchronistically, once I decided to take a step back, I read this passage in my of my all-time favorite books;
“I cannot share that which I do not have. I cannot share meditation with people, I cannot share love with people, I cannot share my joy with people, because I don’t have it. I am a beggar; I can only pretend to be an emperor.”, “But that pretension cannot last for a long time. Soon people will start seeing that ‘This man is just a hypocrite. He himself is tense, he himself is worried; he himself lives in pain and suffering and misery, and he is talking about creating the world as a paradise.’” Osho, Living Dangerously
Aha, the reason for no sign ups to my “21 Day VividLife Quest” this time around was because I myself was not in alignment, and by the grace of God I was given this opportunity, perhaps before it was too late, as my own wellness was on the line.
And what an incredible opportunity it’s been.
In just one week of participating in my own program I started to truly understand the programs rave reviews and remember my original intent for building it; to help others to discover their purpose, or as The Alchemist by author Paulo Coelho so eloquently presents it; their “Personal Legend”, and to mentor them to live it with the best of their ability, from their heart.
However as The Alchemist presents; through a story about a young boy visiting a King to discover what happiness is, I myself became so focused on helping others find their “Personal Legend” I forgot to lift my head and enjoy the journey.
And once I did, Wow oh Wow!
I started to develop more clarity. I’ve felt better physically, mentally and spiritually and have begun to remember my deep desire to connect. I mean really connect, not just via social media but in person and I’ve remembered how much wisdom comes from those connections, through their stories we see ourselves.
We are mirrors.
This week I learned, yet again, the importance of self-inquiry, self-care and connection and how each is interconnected and essential to the whole, not only to a life well lived but in cultivating the wisdom required to lead others.